Restless Night

He's a visitor in the house
round and irregular in shape...

He's been told to share my room with me
a circumstance I have autocratic power
to overrule...

I snuggled in bed like a hibernating bear
under the oozing cool of the air conditioner
while the visitor lay side by side...

Unfortunately, it was one of those days
the nightowls gather for their meeting...

Mine

THEIRS was a love that had been established...

I have a good heart. Yes, a heart that has allowed so much into it;

but yet I can't hold on to one and be proud to call it my own.

I get sweeped by those who have their halves, those who wants a fling

now or after, those who have a family already but just looking for a game.

I'm seen as a stunt double, the character that exists in the background without

any tangible attention, whose manager decides his fate now and then to scrap off

the budget because his role doesn't matter or count...

I have learnt to accept myself this way, maybe I really don't fit into life's plan for two?

I console myself most nights, even in monologue in my bathroom. I have become myself's halve. 

"Hide & Seek"

Its called a child's game but
It was my refuge to let out my inner self.
Somehow, I figured out the taste 
On my buds for intimacy and 
Love for same sex...

Yea, it felt awkward!
Who needs a male child 
That craves for his kind? 
It's a taboo, 'ALU'! 
As my people would say...

He's not human, no! 
He must be from the devil!
I fought and tore myself to undo dis way
I felt but no, it won't go...

It wasn't only me, there were other boys 
Who liked me but only while hiding...

Seek me! 
And hide not 
Cause I know who I Am!
I'm done playing for keeps!
In life I have learnt 
To embrace and to 
Love the being I am.

*At Five*

At five I was quite aware of
the feelings that trailed down
the hallows of my veins,
the taste that soothed the
buds of my infant tongue...

At five my eyes were already keen
dilating at the touch of 'Hades'
rub on my so tender rump...

At five I needn't be told
what hormones in me whispered
ceaselessly day and night
not minding the frequent grasps
of my dear mother's bosoms...

Though I felt tamed like a 
lioness bottled in a case of 
stuffed bear and chocolate bars,
I knew I was already an "Ar-dult"
when it comes to the things of
emotions and tender touch-ies...

This feeling spoke in tongues
I was eager to explore and dine with
even at the expense of my 
own kind, yet I chose to be
figured out as different from
the school of other boiz...

Then came the wars of acceptance
and the chaos' of internal issues
as the stems and branches of
my form start to bud,
fear of the society gripped me
made me convulsive almost led
this young lad to commit
suicide at sixteen...

Even though now am quite aware
of my kind, I know that am one
of many men out there who
aware of their beings are not
ashamed of their gaiety forms
but still are entangled in their
shells to live within...

"DAY DREAMER"

Hooked up with an angel 
On a cold summer nite 
It was a sweet relief 
In the mist of blood and fire 
I felt alive deep within 
Though dead as cold 
On the outside... 

On the veranda we lay 
Whispering softly with tones 
Unheard like water ripples 
We tucked our clothes 
Sleeves and buttons 
We let open... 

In our eyes formed cloudy storms 
Of full moon passion for love making 
And with the soothe of the breeze 
We grasped each others body 
Arm in arm, with toes clinging 
To our fore skin, we kissed 
Caressing each others gait form 
With pleasure refilling the spaces 
Long filled... 

Love making I knew again 
Our moaning reached the open heavens 
And the Creator granting us the will 
To loose ourselves free open 
I felt freedom like never before 
Again and again it went 
That I prayed dis beautiful moment 
Shouldn't come to an end... 

Then suddenly, we felt this surge 
Of extreme relief, though simultaneously 
We had our cums" (LOL) 
Reaching the peak of our fantasies 
Now it wasn't just a gain say 
Of ecstasy indeed our dreams 
Did come alive... 

But with just a wink of an eye, 
I got up though wet 
And then I realised have been 
"Day Dreaming"...